My Faith in the Lord is the size of a grain of mustard seed, at this moment.  But I know in my heart that He cannot lie.  I don't think that one of us runs this race without having to tackle the one thing that will cripple us, "fear".  I don't believe that not one Christian has ever not had a "struggle" with their faith.  I believe.  But I also know that we as the human race are our "brother and sisters" keepers.  We should help one another. 

I am not of a Cain Spirit.  I am of the Spirit of Abel.  I know that I am being hindered because in my heart the one desire I have always had was to be in a position of giving.  The Lord knows my heart and knows that although I am a giver I don't know how to receive help well.  It's always been easy for me to help someone when I had money or not.  I knew that when I didn't have money but had gas in the car, a ride to and from work to a person walking can make all the difference in the world.  When I have money I can go and get food for someone who doesn't have any and leave it where they can find it.  I don't have to be known for giving. 

At this moment in my "walk with the Lord" I know that I will learn how to receive with the same grace as I give.  Only a fool would refuse instruction and I am no fool.  I will begin to search my heart again to find my lack of faith. 

 Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord

Sister Djsmiles:

Get out of this relationship.  Go to the local housing office and let them know what happened to you. I don't know about the Missouri Housing authorities but I do know that you have to get out.  http://www.hud.gov/offices/pih/pha/contacts/states/mo.cfm

Maybe you could go to your Dentist and get the copies of the Exrays showing the work that was done and take them to the free dental clinic in your area.

http://www.freemedicalcamps.com/freeclinic.php

Don't try to get him to do anything.  If he hit you once he will do it again.  Get to a place of safety.  Report him to the police and get out of there.  Don't let the only time you get flowers from him be at your funeral.  You can't smell them or see them then. 

Shirley Shaw,DeliverTheWord

Hi Ms. Wright:

Welcome to Aidpage.  There are really great people here.  They may not have funds at this time but they are a wealth of information.  You can find resources to help you survive this time.  Just remember Bad Times don't Last Always.

Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord

I was really trying to help "Puff".  I am affiliated with a lot of Companies but this one will be removed from my site.  My desire to help is not to scam.  I will continue to search for some help that will enable him to continue on.  Maybe it was a gift from him for graduation and you should not have to pay for a gift. 

Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord

Try here for some help.  They can help you to prevent Forclosure from becoming a problem. http://hotshorturl.com/qn16

Try here you may be able to find a loan here that is not available by convential means.  http://hotshorturl.com/qn15
You know what is best for you and your situation.  I pray that the Lord give you disernment and wisdom beyond your natural abilities.  That he add His super to your natural and you began to seek him for the answers.

Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord

My Sister:

The Word of God says that "a rebellious child shall not live their days out".  Please seek God to give you fairness and justice.  Go to the Civil Liberties Union and file a complaint against the officers who did that to you.  We know that the world is in a sad state when a parent is arrested because they want to save their child from a fate sometimes worse than death. We as mothers here at aid page must reach out to this mom.  She has already lost one son to violence and needs some help. 

Try this place and they will know of people who can help you in the area you are in.  http://www.modestneeds.org/

This is a self-help group that may have some ideas on how to effectively deal with your son.  How to help to heal his pain and get him back on the right track,

http://endabuse.org/programs/children/files/conversations.pdf

In the memory of your son maybe you could organize a group of Mothers who have lost their Children to violence in your community.  This will help your son to face his loss and to know that you do care but you have to go on in order to take care of Him and You.  You can't let your grief consume you because he is still alive.  He truly is acting like someone who feels responsible or guilty.  He must be helped to deal with these issues.

http://www.boston.com/yourlife/articles/2007/03/13/an_angel_in_disguise/

You also must have to heal.  I know how you must be hurting.  I feel your loss and I am hurting for you.  I know that sounds strange but I am a mother who does not ever want to entertain the thought of outliving my children.  For me that is not the natural order of things. It would be a "nightmare" for me.  I will check on you from time to time and I want to continue to search for other ways to help you in other needs.  So stay in touch. 

Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord

I never thought I would ever be in this position.  Where I would be making a post and asking "complete" strangers to help me.  It was always my thought that my family would be there to lift me up when I fell down, to go to my Church, or that my Job would last forever.  Since that time of illusion, it has been to my dismay, that was not life, not reality.  We all have periods in our lives where we can't imagine the reality of where we will be at age 25, 30, or in our 40's.  We certainly don't dream that we would be asking for any type of help from the Government or any source other than hard work and a paycheck.  As I am watching the Security of jobs for most Americans go up in smoke, I know that the reality of this has not only hit home for me but for countless others in the United States and Abroad.  There are so many of us living from paycheck to paycheck, no paycheck, and in so many conditions that require help from others.  

In viewing the situation, I feel ashamed of asking for help.  I really felt in my heart at the age of soon to be 50 that I would be the one to help others.  All my life I wanted to be in a position to help others.  I wanted to be able to surf the net and find families that I could be of help to.  I never wanted a "Spotlight" giving forum, just the means to give without others knowing it was me.  To be able to watch as others were helped from difficult and temporary setbacks.  But it is me who stands in need of help.  Who would have thought or even dreamed that I would be the one to ask for any form of help. 

But I know that God is still able even in these times to touch others hearts to reach out and help you.  "You have not because you ask not".  So, I am asking for help in order to regain a position of being able to fullfill a lifelong dream of being Financially Whole and Healthy.  Not just to keep all of that to myself but pour back into those who helped me when I was in need. I pray that the Lord will lay it on your heart that I truly do need help and not have me to have to pour out all of those things in my heart so you will understand the sincerity of this request.  To have to fill out mountains of paperwork and post all of my personal history on the net.  Just be lead by the Lord and you will know that you are supposed to be the one to help.  No donations is too small, Thank You so Much in Advance.

Shirley Shaw, DeliverTheWord